Years.To.Come,Scars.To.Heal.

Biggest mistakes ?..regrets..

Well , just thought id make a post about it.. alot of people have been talking about what they regret in life so far.. and well.. I stand in my big hard shell and bang my drums about how I don’t regret anything.. when.. i probably regret more than anyone.. 

Getting her pregnant , Loosing the baby .. Fucking up all them years of education.. not giving myself the motivation to accomplish more.. ruining my family in ways indescribable…loosing people i never thought id loose.. 

Usually I’d say this is made back up with new things like new family or new friends.. Which is true.. i mean.. ive all these new friends. friends found back.. I mean i love them all , We tick together through thick and thin..but.. the things im regretting right now just… over weigh what ive accomplished and who ive found.

”We all do things we desperately wish we could undo. Those regrets just become part of who we are, along with everything else. To spend time trying to change that, well, it’s like chasing clouds.”

Friendship.

Friendship is alot of things… its close friends..people you newly meet .. people you know years and talk to once or twice.. people you used to know .

Friendship means alot to people…no matter who it is.

To me.. Its the world.. Ive been through alot of friendships.. Some I treasure dearly and some I regret the ending of.. But i still hold dearly to me.

Take my best mate karl for instance.From day one we just clicked.. I mean.. i was new in school.. and he befriended me , and from them days on we were best mates..total opposites.. i was the stuck up  , rave head kinda guy .. he was the heavy metal kid , non the less , we clicked.. 4 years later he lives with my family and were basically brothers…i mean .. we hang out 24/7 .. He wrote a song about me , basically how i helped him out when he was at an all time low … and the one part of the lyrics that still touch me deep inside are

A helping hand can make you stand , 

But Dwelling friend is with you till the end.

And its true.. Some friends do stick together till the end. There was times where he has picked me up from the dirt and vice versa.

There are other friends who dont go so deep but are still closer then close.. 

Like towller , Dean  and craig.. Who will always be mates no matter what , We might not hang 24/7 but we will always look out for each other , Always have each others backs.. And them friendships are just as close as the one me and karl have. These  guys mean the world to me and i wouldn’t trade them in for a billion euro , Or if i did..id buy them right back..These are the relationships you want when your 30 odd and getting married , and there the ones cracking the jokes about how you were the fat kid at the part… These friendships you will never forget and never give up… I know i wouldn’t.. 

And then there are other friendships where there just people you know , You wont seem them all the time but you see them and might hang out for a while. These friendships are the good ones , Ones where there are bonds but not major ones , and you look out for each other. 

Then there are strange ones , Like Johnny or Barry , who are over the age of 30 , We see them so often yet have  a laugh and a talk .. These friendships are the once of experience.I cant count the amount of times they have giving me very useful advice that i took to heart.. warnings they gave on stuff that was going to happen before it did.These are respected friendships.. the ones you will always cherish and always want.. the ones that will help you through times of well needed advice instead of…”everythings going to be ok” , they lay it out straight.. There friendships you cant thank too much because there always there.

Then theres the casual friendships..people you know , youll see so often and say hello , catch up on things , or walk by on the street and just say hey.. There the relaxed no need to worry friendships.. you might not see them for a week or for a month or for a year.. there still friends and there is no need to worry .

Then there is the BIG friendship , A bond made from birth , The bond alot of people dont notice or some dont consider to be such a friendship. The  friendship you can never repay. A family.. Your mother , father , brother , sister.. These friendships should go through for life.. The people you should ALWAYS be able to fall back on , the people who will give you the most support in life.. no matter your situation..they will always be there.. youd give an arm and a leg for them.. these are friendships that are created for your early youth and dont ever wanna lose…. these are the people you love with all your heart.. cherish this relationship .. Its the best one you can ever have , dont let any one get in the middle of it.. Dont ever lose your family .. Youll never forget them… no matter where in the world you are.. there always there for you 

I can never tell you how important in life.. friendships are.. the good ones , the bad ones.. they create you.. they change you.. some for the better some for the worst.. But never forget a friendship..because in one shape or form they have made you who you are today.. no one can make it through the world alone with out friendships.. Always be true to the ones who respect you the most.. Friends arnt something you can throw away.. there not something you want to loose.. there everything , every one.. and there everywhere.. 

Love and respect every type of friendship… they are what make you.

All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
It’s hard, but it’s harder to ignore it.
If they were right, I’d agree, but it’s them you know not me.
Now there’s a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.